I am HORRIBLE! It has been over a week (again) since I was back on here.. and I just realized yesterday that 1)it had been that long, and 2) that I left with a not so uppity post. How nice of me.
Thank you all for all of your amazing comments, and support in such a sticky situation. Love this network! :) It ended... and not in a way I'd expect. I think the gal is having a midlife crisis or something, but it wasn't just me she ended up screwing over. I left for Sioux Falls, SD bright and early Sunday morning, and didn't come home till Saturday night.
Yes, Sioux Falls, South Dakota. I flew into Omaha and drove up. Beautiful city, beautiful hotel, it had to be a good week.
I flew out to have a week long experience/getting to know you interview. This district manager is reviewing me for a new store I want.. I have never been pushed to my limits, and had to do so much more- but I feel like it went well. I'm supposed to find out this week if I got it or not... Nerve-wracking, but it's in God's hands now, ya know?
What are ya'll doing for Memorial Day? I have a short day of work, then I think Krista and I are going to go see a movie! SATC2 maybe? Any other recommendations?
I hope you all have a wonderful day! And thank you to all of those who serve us so we may life free and pursue life the way we want. Thank you to all of the wives who support those strong men, it takes a strong woman-- and we are all thankful for you!
Talk to ya tomorrow! I have more pictures of the trip! :)
Monday, May 31, 2010
I am HORRIBLE! It has been over a week (again) since I was back on here.. and I just realized yesterday that 1)it had been that long, and 2) that I left with a not so uppity post. How nice of me.
Friday, May 21, 2010
So.. it's Thursday. And it seems as if this Thursday is one of those days it is SO hard to count your blessings.
I'm sorry, but I'm going to vent a little. I honestly haven't struggled this bad in a long time. I have a mind that really dwells on things that upset me, and I will 'beat a dead horse' over and over again trying to a)figure out what I did wrong b)what could have been done differently and c)overthinking to the point-where the thought crosses my mind "Is this really about me? Is it something deeper?"
A coworker basically flipped a lid on me yesterday. The day before something little happened, but she just couldn't move on. She has a pattern of doing this, and it's usually when her home life is distraught.. The thing I'm struggling with is--why does it always come out on me?
I was a part of the trigger action that made crap hit the fan. Over the course of 48 hours, things blew out of proportion so drastically...
I realize, and I will admit- yes, there's always things in each situation that could be done differently/better. But people also make mistakes, and the simple ones should be the easiest to forgive, right?
It takes 2 people to make a right, and it also takes 2 to make a wrong. Although I could have acted a little differently, so could she. And it takes 2 people to forgive, and move on like adults.
This woman is 45+, and she runs me around like I'm in high school, no, middle school again. It is emotionally draining. (This is the 3rd time in a year this has happened.)
Please don't think I'm bashing her, or saying it's not my fault... but I just can't believe it is 100%, or even 2% my fault. We worked together last weekend-things were fine. We worked together Monday-things were fine. Wednesday, like I said earlier, crap hit the fan. She does have drama at home (her son has special learning needs, her husband has run them into financial trouble, and her daughter/grandkids who just got back from base in Germany are refusing to talk to her, and she doesn't know why), and my heart goes out to her. I've been praying soo hard for my heart to soften, for my ability to forgive her, and for her well-being. As HARD as those prayers are to get out- I'm doing it. The one thing I can't understand, or seem to find peace with is that I really do honestly feel like it's not my fault---and that all of these trials she has is landing on me.
It ended yesterday with her walking out, saying she 'really needed to rethink this job situation.'
Have any of you had a coworker continually take things out on you? How do you emotionally move on?
Is it my burden to bear? Is it really my fault?? I feel so stuck.
I am thankful for my husband, who let me vent to him... but, bless his heart- he didn't have much console for me. He did a wonderful job of comforting me, I just wish I could blow it off and not think about it anymore like he advised me. (this picture was from before we were even engaged!)
I am thankful for my best friend, who is always there for me -- good times and bad.. and always has a refreshing taste of honesty and uplifting comments. (she's on the right; the other one was my college roommate.)
I am thankful for my warm fuzzy robe that I have been curled up in since last night.
Sorry if this post bummed anyone out.. I just needed to get it out, and any comments are especially welcome. I hope you all have a wonderful Thursday!
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Man! It's sad how much things can off track when you've had a week out of your normal routine... Nonetheless.. Here is Wishful Wednesday, courtesy of the lovely Kelsey @ Seattle Smiths. :)
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'I wish' .... I could come home to
THIS (pictured above)
bedroom each and every night!!
Unlike Kelsey, I didn't have to search very long for my dream bedroom... I'm trying to plan it right now-because as we are getting ready to move...I think it's time we buy a bedroom set.
The snapshot above captures all the detail and color I hope for in a master bedroom. I am classic romantic, and sometimes vintage. I will probably have more of a cream and deep red bedset, and vintage artwork on the walls. But this one is PRETTY DARN CLOSE.
I grew up in such an 'antiqued' style of living, that although I appreciate the taste, I don't really want it for my own bedroom anymore. My parents gave me a furniture set I used when I was a kid; we use it for our master right now, but I think once we buy 'our' set I will move it to a guest bedroom, or maybe use it for our kids one day.
I LOVE this little mini-library area and the simple valances on the window. Although I am typically drawn to dark colors, I love the light aspect in both of these pictures. I MUST have a lot of windows in my home... :)
I just can't wait till Buck and I have our own home, where we can truly settle down and decorate as we please.. It will be a good day!
Well, I'm off to work now, hope all of you have an awesome day!!!
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Well! After a week long hiatus, I am back! So sorry I haven't posted or commented on anyone's blog as of late... it's been SO crazy!!
Thank you for all the warm wishes for our anniversary! We celebrated a little when I got back, and it was wonderful! :)
The trip went REALLY well. I had a blast, and luckily my review turned out really well. There was so much learning, so much interaction and a lot of good feedback for me on the last day. I won't go into details of it and toot my own horn, but the funniest comment was a district, Tom, from the Michigan area who reportedly said during the time when the mentors were all reviewing us one by one 'Ashton. You know, there's nothing really odd about her..." Funny. Made my day when I heard that- what a random comment!
Here are a few pics from the week! :)
The gal on the right, Heidi, was my 'randomly selected roomie'.. It worked out SO well. She is the sweetest thing- LOVE her!
This was our lil 'clique'... Greg is a district that carpooled with myself and Jessica (on the right (funniest.girl.ever.)).. and he already knew Heidi- so we all just stuck together during free time. So fun.
This was the last night we were at meetings, where they set us free and let us go play in the big ol city (not)... it was a family fun center- bowling, minigolf, arcade,etc), and Jess and I were posin in the sharks mouth- yeeah.
I took tons of others, for store merchandising ideas, d.c. pics to share with my assistant manager... and things like that- but they are not so interesting to the bloggy world, so I won't bore you!
What has been going on with ya'll? I'm going to try to tackle getting back and commenting everything I've missed!! Hope all is well!!!
Monday, May 10, 2010
So! Lovely ladies... Guess What?!?
I am at my company's headquarters.
Myself and 50+ other Management Trainees from all around the company are here as a 'wrap-up,' if you will, of our training programs. It's so fun to meet all of these other magnetic people.. who have such a strong passion for what we do. Such a great bunch of people. I love the group trainings, smaller group brainstorm sessions and all the interaction. Everyone has a different perspective and different management style, and I just want a piece of it all!
Scary thing is that this is also a review- a big review- that influences your next steps in the company. There are area and district managers dispersed throughout the groups, and they are observing us/our actions/our thoughts... then they give feedback to our district/area about progressing in the company.. You basically get evaluated on a green, yellow or red scale. Green- good to go manage now, Yellow- needs some more time (maybe 6mos) or Red-Needs to evaluate if this really is the right job for them...
I'm kinda nervous-- but just trying to be myself. I think it's working ;0) I feel good so far!
In other NEWS: today is a big day for another reason besides this huge career move I have going on...
Notice the profile? TODAY IS OUR 2ND WEDDING ANNIVERSARY!
It's craziness. I can't believe it's been 2 years already. It was so funny this morning, because I had to leave at 5:45 am this morning, and he was crashed.. It was a simple "Babe... I love you.. Happy Anniversary...Let's say a prayer.. *prayer* ... Ok- bye I love you- see you in a week!" I have come to believe we will never have a 'normal' anniversary. Oh well, right!
Here are some pictures to look back on:
I love you SO much, Buck. I'm so glad we've worked through the rough times, and I'm so thankful the trials made us stronger. I don't know what my life would be like without you-- and I never want to know. You help me stand a little taller, strengthen my testimony daily and challenge me to be a little better each day. You're awesome.. and I love you!
Alright all! I'll try to update through blogger-mobile with pictures, I just have to figure it out first! Ha
Have a wonderful Monday!
Sunday, May 9, 2010
GTKY Sunday came a day early today... but I didn't really have the time to post yesterday! Here I am... scrunched for time, but tonight I promise I will post and let ya'll know what is going to be going on the next week (Eee!)
So here they are, courtesy of Keely @ MannLand5 ! Enjoy!
1. What has been your most memorable Mother's Day? (with your mom, as a mom, or with your wife)
Hmm.. I don't really have one. But funny story. Our wedding anniversary is May 10th, and last year that fell on a Sunday, which happened to be Mother's Day. We try not to do anything on Sunday, to keep the Sabbath Holy... so it had to be planned out by Saturday. Buck goes and gets a card for me... and it is the PERFECT card, word for word about how he feels about me and the life he sees in us.. (written by Hallmark lol- but still perfect!), well the last line reads "Happy Mother's Day." And I was like, "EXCUSE ME??? What the... Where do you get off..." and he says "well, it was perfect till that line.. and I didn't really feel like fighting through the lines in the card aisle for another- I just grabbed this one off the end." Immediate reaction: Grr!! Now I find it funny, but it was definitely memorable--- especially for our 1st anniversary!
2. Have you ever been pulled over for speeding and were you able to talk your way out of it?
Yes, and no I can't talk nor cry my way out... I had to learn to stop speeding. Ticket free 3+ years!! YAY!
3. What's the oldest thing you have hanging in your closet?
I would say a pretty pink, floral skirt from like 2001. Ah! I didn't realize it was that old, but I still wear it to church sometimes, and still get compliments... hmm!
4. Do you whiten your teeth?
Yes, I do... I always have whitening strips on hand.. and daily use a whitening toothpaste. Love!
5. Underwear or Panties..What do you call your "unmentionables"?
A combo of both! Undies ;)
6. If you could go on vacation right now..today..where would you go?
Brazil.. it's totally on my mind.
7. Do you get offended when people cuss on their blogs?
No.. but I will tend not to read them if it's f-this or b-her and blah blah blah I come to the blog world to be uplifted not trash-talked to..
8. If you had to give up one luxury item, it would be....?
mmm. Chocolate. It will be the death of me. Maybe I should give it up...
Nah, I'm good.
I hope you all are enjoying your fabulous Mother's Days!
Friday, May 7, 2010
It's Fill in the Blank Friday again over at The Little Things We Do ... and this week, it's themed around books. Fun!!
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1. My favorite book growing up was anything I could get my hands on! I was quite the reader, and would read anything and everything in the school library. At one point, my parents had to take away my bedside lamp because I was staying up reading all night.. in elementary school. Lol.
2. The funniest book I've ever read was probably "Watermelon" by Marian Keyes. It is noted as one of the first chick-lit books, and was actually phenomenal. It is rather long, but so hard to put down. I don't generally read funny books, so feel free to send me some recommendations!
3. The one book that has truly changed my life is Obvious answer: The Bible and Book of Mormon.. BUT....as far as novels go, "Who Moved My Cheese?" by Dr Spencer Johnson. It gives a refreshing outlook on how natural man adapts to change, and how to roll with the flow in the healthiest way. There is a sequel, if you will, "Fish" which is also good. And in the same category, I would also recommend "The One-Minute Manager", "Retail Magic" and "Monday Morning Leadership". Super quick 1 hour reads, and they will change the way you live, work and function.
4. If you're looking for a real "tear jerker" you should probably read "P.S. I Love You." I know it was late made into a movie, but I read the book a couple years before- cried during the book and bawled during the movie. So.Good.
5. If I could meet any author living or dead I would want to meet Nicholas Sparks. I'm so interested to see what kind of man he is that can come up with pure romance, and to ask him if he can give my husband a few pointers ;)
6. The next book on my "to read" list is "An Inconvenient Wife", Megan Chance (recommended by D.A.R.), "Twenties Girl" by Sophie Kinsella and "The Carrie Diaries" by Candace Bushnell (recommended by Sierra). I'll let ya'll know how they are!
7. If I was snowed into remote cabin in the woods and could only choose three books to bring with me I'd bring my scriptures... and if you guys have any other reads you can read over and over, please let me know! I have a tendancy to only read something once. ha!
Happy Friday Beautiful Ladies!! :)
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Thursday is almost over! I almost missed today's theme.. but Short and Sweet here it is:
It was interesting, today.. It seems I had a lot to look back on and reflect on. Did you know that today was National Prayer Day? I didn't until about 8 pm, when a lot of news updates started coming through my phone. As you can imagine, there are quite the debates arising country-wide that a government sponsored holiday like today is a contradiction of the separation of church and state. It kills me that people can't take it for what it is- if you have a religious belief that involves a god, and you pray- they pray. If you don't, then don't pray- continue living your life the way you usually do. Pretty simple, right? *sigh*
I'm thankful that we live in a mostly Christian believing country (I'm trying to include everyone that believes in a Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ the Son and salvation through Him alone.) I'm thankful that we can all have our own individual beliefs, and stand behind them -- praying or not.
I'm thankful for those in my life. Thankful for Christian friends who pray for me, and I for them- even when it's not National Prayer Day. I'm thankful for my coworker's dad, who visits us every week. 'Dad' reminds me of my own dad, my own grandpa and the kind of hugs you can only get from those kinds of big hearted men. He comes in to make us smile, often brings chocolate from the local mall candy store (yum) and gives the best hugs when he comes in and when he leaves. What a precious man. I cannot wait to see Buck hug our little ones like that, and I'm thankful I'm going to have the opportunity to see it.
Have a wonderful Friday lovely ladies!
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
It's Wishful Wednesday again!
'I wish' .... I was fluent in another language in addition to English, and it would be Portuguese!
Portuguese is close enough to Spanish that it would be killing two birds with one stone. Living in southern Colorado, I find more and more how useful Spanish is. I know my basics, to get me proficiently through a conversation- but I am no where near fluent.
In college, I found interest in French. I LOVE that language. I have always wanted to do something in pharmaceuticals eventually, and I was somewhat interested in going to Canada to do so- so hence another reason to learn la langue. I have also traveled to France, where my initial infatuation started. However, French has not done me much good. HA.
My hubs served a mission in Brazil, where he had to learn Portuguese. Our R.S. Pres is Brazilian as well. He sometimes practices with her and another family in our ward. I wish he and I could practice together in a little 'love language.'
What a fun Wishful Wednesday! Thanks Kelsey! It was a good one!
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Happy Wednesday!! :)
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
So, this past weekend, as I've mentioned, was Buck's college graduation! We had his family in town for the events and the only pictures I haven't posted yet include after his graduation.. and the day after when we went to Cripple Creek and explored a gold mine! So! Here you go!
(See last Thursday's post for other graduation pix!)
I know, I'm like the super-tacky person that wears denim to a graduation. It was held at the state fair grounds, and the chairs are bleachers. I wasn't too keen on sitting there in nice trousers or a skirt that would probably get dirty..plus the ceremony was not well-lit, so.. it worked. Judge if you like, I wear what I want. ;)
This is Buck and his homies... Josh and Jesus ;) ... at his surprise party.
Here we are in the mine gift shop... I kinda like the pink hat!
1000 feet under the ground... Still technically 9000 feet elevation, but still pretty far down in a little hole (like below!)
And THAT! Is our weekend... It was a good one, but I have been sleeping SOO well since company left- love 'em but they wore me out! ;)
See ya tomorrow for Wishful Wednesday! Hope you had a fabulous Tuesday!
Monday, May 3, 2010
Oh Mondays.... *sigh* what long days you make!
After 4.5 days off, it sure is hard to go back to work. The usual started with 8 am meeting, and monthly managers conference call. After, I ran to the eye doctor's. What started out as a simple trip did not end as so...
I am officially blind. lol, not really, but I'm pretty useless without corrective lenses of some sort. If I hold my hand out in front of my face, it gets blurry about 8" away from my face. Sad day. Without contacts or glasses, I can pick out colors and objects... no specifics, no depth. So fun.
Plus, because my prescription changed- I can't get lasik. Your prescription has to stay steady for 2 years otherwise it's really not worth it. SO SAD!!!
SO! I'm stuck with these:
Frames from Juicy Couture-- LOVE!!! Mine are a subtle deep purple/clear with subtle glitter. I've never loved glasses before!
So a few ups and downs... a typical Monday. It ended with running a Career Information Night at the store, there was a pretty good turnout. I'm happy. And there were probably 5 quality candidates. Can't wait to see where this goes.
Overall, a good Monday. How was yours?? Hope it was GREAT!
Sunday, May 2, 2010
It is SUNDAY, again! Wow- this weekend flew by! We had family in all weekend, and I took off work for Buck's graduation. I'll post some of the actual ceremony and our little adventure on Saturday later.
For now, here are the questions from Keely!
1. Are you superstitious?
Superstitious by Faith yes... I don't do the 'step on a crack, break your mother's back' stuff, but I do believe my actions directly effect my blessings so I find myself thinking about a lot of little things I do (like what thoughts I think about a situation or someone, how I treat others, etc). Call it faith, fancy kharma or superstition.. whatever works!
2. If you were an animal..what kind would you be?
I haven't played this question since I was a kid! lol .. I think I would be a Vogelpop Bowerbird. It is a tiny little bird that lives in the rain forest, and the whole purpose of it's life is to attract a female. The male decorates his bower with colorful jewels from the forest, and uses vocal mimicry to attract the attention of a female. He will not get a mate for life until one female finds it satisfactorily appealing. Now, that is some intense courting. (I learned about it on Life on Discovery BBC! Watch it here!
3. You would never catch me wearing.........?
Anything 'emo'. (sorry, any emo-ish readers... just a little weird to me!)
4. If someone posts a VLOG..do you watch it?
No.. rarely. I watched one the other day of a little 1 year old playing hide and seek, but he was stinkin cute!
5. Have you ever waxed your girlie/manly parts..or any other part of your body?
Yes, had the dreaded bikini twice... and there's usually a few years between when I go! OW!I do get my eyebrows waxed with every haircut though. Something that makes the haircut seem even better!!
6. Are you a spender or a saver?
A mix of both! I work somewhere it's hard not to spend, but I'm trying to be good. I'm trying so hard to save right now; so many things need money: student loan payoff, building savings, moving expenses, car fund... *sigh* must be responsible!
7. If you were starring in a movie..who would you want to play your leading man/woman?
Gerrard Butler. I love the accent, and sense of humor... He's basically a buffed up Buck (in my eyes), but I'm happy with the real-life leading man I have- he's a lot nicer than I've heard Gerrard is!
I love the white shirt and tie; I'm a sucker- and hubs wears them at least once a week! yay!
8. Smoker..never smoked..social smoker..or smoked back in the day?
Tried it, over it, lame! Non-smoker. I rather enjoy being healthy and non-stinky (sorry, any smoker readers!)
Well, I hope I didn't offend anybody. Anything I say is strictly MY opinion, and I am not placing any judgment on anyone- life your own life, that's all you can control.
I hope your Sunday was fab, and hope your Monday starts off well! See you tomorrow for Mayhem Monday!! :)